Monday, December 27, 2010

Depressed or Lazy???

I do not know if I am depressed or lazy. I find myself retreating to my bed at any sign of confrontation or negative energy within my marriage, I have changed so much over the last few months that my husband can't seem to keep up or should I say want to accept the differences in me.

What has changed is my relationship with God, & the way I want to live my life. I can't seem to get it through to my husband that I cannot handle the stress of his smart ass comments or his attacks, when he says things like are you going to be there all day? Or  he say's things like it's always the same thing from you "why should I expect anything else".

I find that in the last few months I am no longer willing to accept living like someone else wants me to live. I find myself wanting nothing more then a sense of calm, clarity & oneness within myself & my family. I am searching for us all to be on the same page. My children have noticed a change in me & have been doing there best to help us get there, together. It is amazing that 3 little angels can see what is happening within me but, a grown man refuses to acknowledge what is right in from of his eyes.

So in your opinion would you say I am Lazy, Depressed or maybe just fed up???

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